Writing - the ups and downs

On September 2 at O.S.U. Medical Center  I'll be having an endoscopic ultrasound probe of the pancreas. This will result in photos of the pancreas and it's current condition - which was great two years ago during same procedure. I have a feeling I'm suffering from some nerve damage done when the Spinchter of Oddi in the pancreas was cut on 6+ years ago. Procedure sounds not so fun but I'll be asleep and won't care. The doctor at this point is planning to do a nerve block on a cluster of nerves in the pancreas - I thought he said they were called the Celiac nerves. Not positive. I'm trying to retain only enough knowledge to get by. I'm tired of doing research and have decided to leave this to the experts. I've quit worrying and that's helped. LOTS. Today I did yoga for the first time in months. Other than being a stiff old broad, I did fine. So my plan is to do yoga every day as long as I can. It's fun and I love the Rodney Yee tap...

I'm trying to turn over a new leaf. It's time. BUT the leaf just won't turn over. I'm getting stronger after the pancreas procedure but I find myself wanting to stay stuck right where I am. Not moving forward nor backward. Sitting on the sofa watching time pass me by. Even the weather has improved to beyond beautiful with lots of sun and blue skies. And still I sit. Contemplating possibilities. Options. Opportunities. Sometimes contemplating nothing. Do I want to sit on the sofa forever and think sad thoughts about how upset I am that I have a pancreas disorder I do not understand. I fit none of the criteria for this illness, disorder, disease or whatever it is called. Research has turned up nothing. Zilch. Zero. Writing usually brings me out of any funk I fall into. I go to my desk now and slowly shuffle the papers. The stories. Scraps papers full of endless ideas for stories. Notes on how to improve "the" novel. Yet I still do not move toward...

I haven't been around to read blogs or catch up on my own. I had another ERCP to put a stent in the pancreas duct. Ended with a three day hospital stay. I'm home now and recovering. Feeling 100% better than before I went in. Does anyone know anything about the workings of the pancreas? I'm still looking for answers and I think there are none. Dr. Groce doesn't know if this condition  is genetic or caused by gall stones gone wild,  scarring the pancreas duct. Scar tissue grows I assume and makes the opening more narrow. . Here I must say the doctor and his staff at O.S.U. have been terrific. (The pain not so much. The hospital stay not so much.  But that's a story in itself.) The balloon he uses to open the duct helps and then he puts in a stent that comes out automatically in several days. Thank God. Don't want him to go back fishing for it!!! My daughter Susan and my sister have this problem as well. It seems there is no cure for it. There is one...